Moving Out!

WEEEEH!

Now thats off my chest, onwards! So I totally kicked my works ass this week. That morning I had to work? Well that really REALLY didn't go well. I couldn't help but laugh though. I was being crapped out for something that wasn't my fault over the phone. For some reason I didn't retaliate. All I could do was smile, nod my head and be like "I'm sorry. Mmmmhmmmm. Will get right on it." Turns out, that this lady (not my boss, one of my clients) was crying over spilt milk. I wasn't even needed at the end of the day, and I got crapped out for nothing. I wonder how she must feel now. I ALSO found out that she knew about this event a week ago. So why the hell would she wait for the day before to send an email. Why wouldn't she pick up a phone in a few hours if nobody replied to the mail? Who knows, I don't know how some people work. This is a rant I know, its more for me then it is for you :P I'm done now.

Amber started chatting to me out of the blue today on FB chat. I always get a little annoyed because lately she never ever talks to me unless she wants something, so I was kind of expecting her to ask me for whatever it was thats she wanted. Surprisingly we just chatted random rubbish briefly before she said that she has to go and shower. She didn't even end up saying bye. a little bit later, she wrote on like a lot of her friends walls, just randomly. Asking some how they are, telling others they are awesome, etc. She got around to writing on mine, and all she had so say was, well, ask me what I want for my birthday (which is next Wednesday). I was just like O_o lol. Don't know why I added this, guess it bothered me a little on the inside. Anyhoo, I don't want anything for my birthday. Hers is 9 days after mine, wonder what I must get her.

Chello told me that he is going to start running. I was thinking about it, my only exercise is soccer once a week and the odd gym session I drag myself to. Other then that, during work I walk a hell of a lot. According to Gruff (who all girls seem to instantly love :P Its his asian charm I tell you) girls go crazy over calf muscles. I just get pictures of girls with hearts in their eyes, staring at a guys calves. Its so funny! If this is true, then I must admit, my walking helps a lot with that. Girls also seem to like a killer body, and although I do not have a six pack, My tummy is flat and does have a muscular outline :P thats good enough for me. Besides, I am expecting the lady I marry to love me for me, not my abs or my calves. I have no idea what Chello looks like in real life, it doesn't matter though, all the girls like him for the way he rolls his r's :P

Back to work, I just realised that I have gotten most of my work done this week, and have very little to do tomorrow. So that is an awesome bonus and on top of that I am off on Friday. LONG WEEKEND! I have a number for another place I am hoping to get a job at. I am going to call them tomorrow and send them my CV. Hold thumbs for me please!

Other then that, I am feeling a lot happier lately, I am just taking one day of my life at a time. But I am moving out from the old and into the new.

Oh Look a Keyboard!

Man I realised today that my last blog was close to two weeks ago. I really don't know what happened to last week. I spend the whole week being super busy workwise, and then Friday-Sunday at home being home sick with flu. I'm still not fully recovered mind you, but I am feeling a lot better.

So remember that event Amber invited me to which I thought was just going to be us two and it actually wasn't? Well get this, everybody ditched (Amber included because she was sick that day) so it ended up just being me and Robs. It was cool to hang out alone with Robs I must admit, I find that I am pretty open to her about most things in my life, which is strange because these days I hardly talk to Amber, who I am pretty much the most open with. It feels like Robs at least has time to listen so I don't mind chatting to her. Amber is too busy with college, as is Gruff. My two closest friends, too busy for anything else. I can't wait for the world cup, they will then be on six weeks of holiday. I don't blame them for being scarce, I understand that college is college and they are drowning in work. It doesn't change the fact that I really do feel lonely without seeing them as often as I am used to.

Eggs and Rice. Must get started but I keep procrastinating.

My job really peed me off today. I get a call at 8pm from my boss, telling me one of our clients wants us to set up at a golf day tomorrow at 7am. Oh, and don't forget that we have nothing to set up with, so my boss went and assured our client that we would organise something. No wait lets rephrase that: That she would just get ME to do something and she wouldn't have to do anything O_o it's just so frustrating... New job hunt begins TOMORROW!

I went with my sister to drop off something at her new boyfriends house today. My sister has been through so much, and so being the younger brother, I am actually very protective of her even though I don't show it. I must admit, I really like this guy though and I feel that they are right for each other. I don't know why, I just get this feeling in my gut. I really think he will look after her. Well heres to hoping at least.

I started writing a 3rd book :x I am actually proud of myself because I am constantly adding to it (its kind of a requirement) so only time will tell. I will post the link on here soon once Its a bit bulkier on word count :)

I read another friend of mines blog today (he just started one) and believe it or not, one of his early posts is about a girl he likes. I just laughed, because that is like the 3rd blog I have read from a male, that talks about a girl, or girls in general. You can count mine as 4. Seems most guys just want to be the knight in shining armour looking for their princess. I only seem to know good guys, because I doubt I would be friends with a guy who treats girls like dirt, although I do know a guy who likes hitting on girls lots O_o I should sort him out sometimes.

World cup fever is slowly setting in here in South Africa. I must admit that I find it funny how most South Africans are now all of a sudden passionate about our country. With cars driving around with flags and South African merchandise all over it. I'm not against it, but I am glad that people are finally getting behind our team. Lets hope they don't ashame us during the competition, because in all honesty they are not that great, but I know that when they play with their hearts and soul they actually do flipping well. so, GO SOUTH AFRICA! If they do fail though at least I can support Portugal, assuming they aren't on bad form either.

Regardless of what people may say or think about me and Amber, I really really really miss her and spending time with her. I hope she knows though, that I am insanely proud of her and what she is doing this year. I didn't expect her to be half as dedicated to college as she is, but I know she is working her ass off.

I think thats all I have for now. Sage is talking random stuff to me over steam now (something we are actually good at doing O_o exchanging absolutely irrelevant information with each other), Chello is whining about his stats in HoN (online game, in case you forgot). At the end of the day (which is 45 mins from now) I need sleep to be up early tomorrow for lame work, so goodnight :) have an awesome week!

Women: The Good, The Bad, And the Worst

HI GUISE! :D

So interesting things happened tonight. I spoke about how Chello is over girls, and I am still in the middle with Amber, and I did indeed forget to mention that Xander was also going through some tricksy problems of his own. So where do I start?

The Good: Xander has immense feelings for a girl in his school. I won't go into too much detail, because thats a story that has too much volume for my tiny blog :P I don't know all the tiny details myself anyways. The point is that this girl generally didn't treat Xander like she cared, and it really affected him in a negative way. Long story short, something happened, she cried over it and was really hurt. Then Xander and her made up, and agreed to be friends, which at least helped him out in a huge way. He seems super happy again, like a huge weight has been lifted off his shoulders.

The Bad: I mentioned last night that there was a chance I would be seeing Amber tomorrow night. Well at the end of the day I am, which is super cool, but it won't be just us two. She asked me tonight if I would mind giving her and her best friend Robs a lift there and back. Gruff and Niel will also be there. This is all cool, I really don't mind, but how can she not mention this to me in her sms? It really felt like her sms was addressed to me personally, and not a bulk sms sent to a few people. It also annoys me that she just asked for a lift out of nowhere now. It almost feels like I was just invited as a convenience (although I know it probably wasn't) this isn't really bad, but I was really hoping for some alone time with her. Oh well -_- not to mention the fact that when I am with her and Robs, I am kind of like the spare wheel.

The Worst: I mentioned Chello in my blog last night with him and his relationship (or lack of) with Pascal. She told him that she just wants to be friends with him. Well tonight, Chello found out that she did most definitely hook up with his friend Petri, and that he in fact asked her out. This really is like a total low blow to Chello. WHILE they were "unofficially" dating, she decided to just slow it down and be friends. Barely a week later, she is dating his (now ex) friend Petri. Chello deleted her off mxit and facebook. She sent him a message over facebook though, which he sent me. I'll just copy some extracts and paste them here:

"if you care for me and want me to be happy u should be happy for us, coz he asked me out and i said yes. and i like him. alot. and i want me and u to be happy and uncomplicated and i want you to be hppy for me and him since i'm happy for you. and this is somehtign that just happened, hes got nothign to do with the fact that me and u didnt work out, it jsut so happened to be the right timing. mwah"

I know its hard to make sense of her random typing, but you get the gist of it. It just irritates me how she just used Chello, and now is all of a sudden in love with his best friend. Really, how naive can you be?

I know its random, but all these things seemed to happen tonight (or in the span of 24 hours). Xander making up with Toine, Amber telling me other people will be joining us, and Chello finding out that Pascal is a bit of a *insert bad word here*. Thought it would make for an interesting read :) I find it interesting how we are all on different levels of relationships (or now friendships or lack thereof.) Lets see whats to come...

Good Thing Sipho Was Outside On The Treadmill Making This Internet Connection Possible ^_^

I'm still alive! Sorry I have been so scarce, I have just been so super busy. The times I do have to blog, I tend to spend playing games online. I have a friend named Chello, who I have never met before, who stays in Cape Town. We met while playing games online and we chat about our lives and random stuff like every day now. The point though is that it is impossible for me to be online without Chello demanding that I join him in a game of HoN. Unfortunately there is always that itch to play so I tend to choose playing over writing, which isn't good I know :) I just need balance out both. Chello always chats to me online though, always about random stuff. When we do talk about serious stuff though, it always ends up that I chat about Amber and he talks about a girl in his life Pascal. What else do guys talk about when they are serious? Only girls...

Chello really liked this girl Pascal, but then she ended up telling him that they should just be friends (after they had a bit of an unofficial relationship or whatever you want to call it.) She went behind his back though and ended up hooking up with Chello's one friend. That really affected him, and now he doesn't trust women at all. In fact so much so that he keeps telling me to just not chat to Amber at all and get over her, because she will probably pull a Pascal on me and hurt me. It's not like she hasn't hurt me before, but I still refuse to listen to him. He raises such a good point though. Most girls always whine about how guys can be such jerks and screw them over. You know why it happens though? When every guy is innocent and still in their teens or just out of their teens (like me :P I'm 21) some of us actually know how to treat girls very well. We treat them with respect, spoil them, look after them and let them know they are loved. Based on mine and Chello's experiences, and various other male friends I know, this always seems to have us being shook off and being hurt. It's really not nice... I can't even begin to explain how sometimes I just think about maybe if I am an ass to Amber, she will pay me the attention that I crave, and the love that I want. I would never resort to that though, I am not a typical guy. Anyways I know this is a rant, and the moral is that girls should just really treausre guys that go the extra mile for them. I have done so much for Amber that I don't expect in return, but I must admit that sometimes I just wish she would show that she appreciates me a bit more then she does. A random sms here and there, a random thank you for everything... that kind of thing would make me so happy. Chello will really take some time before he trusts girls again though, I don't blame him. Pascal is a confusing female and she hurt him.

In other news, I have not hung out with Amber for ages. She asked me if I want to go out with her this Thursday evening. I'm all keen, but I'm not getting my hopes up for us being alone, for all I know it was just a normal invite sms she sent to various people. I hope its just us two though, I miss seeing her alone.

JuicyFig you really will have to help me here. In the game of HoN we played tonight there was an American playing. He casually went on and on and on to tell us that we are a pathetic nation. We are all black and the rest of the world doesn't care about our crappy country. He also went on to say that we can't afford the internet and we all suck. Yeah well done genius, its not like we were connected to the internet to be on the receiving end of your useless racist remarks. It doesn't take a lot to make me angry, but I must admit that it got my blood boiling. South Africa is one of the most amazing places in the world, with a big variety of people. I sometimes don't understand how people overseas (mainly the Americans) have such a lack of knowledge about the rest of the world. Do they really think we stay in huts and have like no sort of buildings or technology? That we just have animals strolling around casually? Granted we aren't as up to date as the rest of the world, but we are not from the stone age -_- I just love South Africa I guess, such an awesome place! Does the world know that? Or do they just see us as another African country?

For those of your blogs that I haven't yet commented on, fear not! I will be reading them soon :) until another time... goodnight!

I Just Don't Have The Power...

Hey Blog :)

So thanks to our countries AWESOME energy supplier, Eskom, I have no power at my house at the moment. In fact several blocks seem to be out. I was out pretty much the whole day, but it only decided to cut out about 5 minutes before I got home (according to my dad) normally, I would really be annoyed, but for some reason I am not.

I had not had dinner, and I got home around 11 or so. AAAH! Quick interjection here: The power came on for a second, I saw my phone start charging! Then it died.... but then it came back for another second! Then it died again. They must be getting close to fixing the problem. Anyways back to my blog! So I had to eat dinner. My mom had dished up for me and left my food in the microwave. Thank goodness she didn't put it in the fridge or else I would have had a cold meal. It was interesting eating in the dark with a little electric lantern we had for such occasions (which at one stage were a very frequent occurrence in South Africa). My dad walked through the kitchen and commented that until the age of 10 he had not had any electricity. Now you may be thinking along the lines of what the hell electricity has been around for more then a century now??? Yes that is correct, and I do not know all the details or the full story, but my dad comes from a little Portuguese island called Madeira (google it if you want to know more ;D) I take it that electricity took its time in finding its way to that little island, or my dad just lived in a village that didn't have any. My dad was born in 1947 so it would be interesting to know when electricity found its way there. The only reason my dad got electricity at the age of 10 is because he moved to South Africa at that age.

So I finished my meal, and decided to climb into bed straight after (not that there was really anything else to do) but I must admit, I am rather enjoying laying upright here and writing in my blog. My bed is right next to my window. I opened my blinds, and I have the most amazing view of the perfect full moon. Quick fact about me if you didn't already know: I really love the moon. I can be walking along, glance it the full moon and literally stop and stare at it for ages. It's quite surprising that I haven't crashed, because I can do it while driving too. It's strange though, Amber is the complete opposite. She loves the perfect sunsets, which I admit I like too, but I prefer the moon. I always think about her when I see an awesome sunset, and I can't help but feel that she thinks about me when she sees a perfect moon.

AAAH! The power seems to have come back on now. Nothing has changed though, I am still in total darkness in my bed. I wonder where my cat it, she always comes and snuggles at my feet when I am in bed. I left my window open and embraced the cold air, knowing she will come inside sometime during the evening.

My one friend Marcello decided to start a blog thanks to me. He only ever reads mine when I have told him to read my latest entry. Lately he has been going through some girl issues himself and decided to start his own. Surprisingly, like me, he really enjoys it too, and finds putting his thoughts in writing quite a nice thing to do. He also keenly mentioned in his first blog how I never mention him in my blog, so this paragraph is for him :P if you want you can check his profile out, he is one of my followers.

Lets hope that Eskom can get this power story sorted out soon... thw world cup is less then two months away! Don't even get me started on Telkom, the internet here has been terrible over the last few days. In fact, I am posting this off my 3G connection (which I would have had to have done anyways considering I am in bed :P)

Freedom Day!

So the weekend happened. Not much to talk about there :P well not that I really have the energy to write about now anyways.

Today was a public holiday which meant a great day of just relaxing and doing nothing too strenuous. The weather has taken a rather strange turn as of late. It's like we were in Summer (early Autumn here is still very warm) but then overnight the weather just changed and it's so chilly now! So staying in bed late was by far the most awesome thing to do. I haven't been out with my close cousins for a family lunch for AGES! Like I mean I see them often, but back in the day, me and my cousins Claudia, Gabriela and Andrea used to go out for lunch with my parents all the time. Then we all grew up a bit (Well me and Claudia, because we are the same age) and it wasn't as frequent a gathering. Anyways, We sat there and chatted lots about random stuff. I must admit, I love my family to bits. I truly have an amazing collection of people to share my life with! Me and my cousin Claudia chatted about her ex, Lorenzo, and my confusing interest, Amber. Her and Lorenzo were really such an awesome couple. I still don't really know what happened to them (they broke up two years ago) and she was telling me how she misses him so much. I must admit, I miss him too. He was such a nice guy to chat to, and it was awesome to see them two together. Ah relationships are such confusing things. I really want to talk about Amber, but I will spare you :)

Work wise, I am back to doing normal merchandising, which is so awesome! No more boring work and what not...

Other then that, have an awesome week! :)

I'm Just Another Stickman

It's 01:17 AM here. Why am I still awake? Oh wait... I don't have work tomorrow! I have the day off :D

I bet we can all remember that promotional work I always whined about, well I am glad to say that this was the last of the 8 weeks, and its over! As of next week I will hopefully be getting back to normal work that is much more enjoyable and interactive. Still curious to see how my company is going to change over the next few weeks. Certain employees are only there for a few months, so who will replace them when their time is up? At least its not something for me to worry about.

I went to Ambers house today to help her mom sort out some computer related issues. Amber didn't bother coming to say hello to me until she needed to get something from the kitchen (which is through the dining room, where I was just chatting to her parents) I proceeded to the study which is next to her room, and I started to work on her moms laptop. Amber walked past the room without so much as a glance and went straight into her room. I knew she was doing college work but I was a tad offended that she couldn't give me one second of her time to chat or anything. Anyways I got over that shortly. I did what needed to be done.

I then needed to set up something on Amber's pc so I went into her room and asked her if I could do it quickly. She agreed and stood up. While I was working on her pc she scruffed my hair and put her arm around me. I ended up running back on forth from her room, to the study, to the lounge (where another pc was) but eventually I was done and sat in Ambers room, watching the end of an episode of series that she was watching. Depending on how the evening went, I was going to see if I could maybe spend some time with her. Not even a few minutes after sitting in her room, her best friend Robyn arrived (also known as Robs). I knew that was my time to leave, plus her mom was serving dinner soon, and I told my mom I would probably be home for dinner. It actually makes me laugh how Robs always says she is scared she will feel like a third wheel around me and Amber, when in actual fact I become the third wheel and they giggle and talk about girly stuff. So I really wasn't keen for that :P

I left them in her room, and went to say goodbye to Ambers parents. Her mom asked me how I was and how work and everything was. I gave the normal answers before she surveyed me and asked "So the only way we are going to see you is if I ask you to come and help me out with something?" I couldn't help but nod my head and say, "It seems that way..." in all honesty it does. Amber only really seems to invite me over when she needs something done, wants something, or is bored and has nothing better to do. Seeing as she has college she doesn't really not have anything to do, and seeing as she hasn't wanted anything for a while, I haven't really been to her place much. Even if she doesn't mean it to seem that way, it really does feel like it. On the odd occasion I know she will invite me over because she really does miss me, but that hasn't happened in a good few weeks. It kind of bummed me out that Robs got to come over because she got an invite or something, I was just there because her mom needed something done. She truly is a confusing female :P haha

When I got home I decided to utilize my incredible paint skills and whipped up a new stickman image for my facebook profile picture. I will put it up for your pleasure :P



I must apologise if all my latest posts seem to be whining, moaning ones. Been going through some strange stuff emotionally lately :) so I just like to get it off my chest.

Until next time, have a great Friday!