Sunday, March 22, 2009

Am I Dreaming?

Dreams are the most peculiar things ever. I find it weird how your mind can work overtime to paint a picture of whats happening (Or not happening :P) in your head. People often quiz over whether dreams have meaning or if they are just a ramble of your minds thoughts being played out. I personally think that dreams can have meaning. In the bible God did give certain people dreams, which they understood. Surely he can do the same today?

We have all had those Deja Vu moments. Where you honestly feel like whatever moment you are in has happened before. Ever thought that maybe you have dreamed it before? We cant remember half of what we dream, and often what we do remember is so random and does not make sense. Possible those Deja Vu moments are things we have dreamed before? I don't know, but i could swear i have dreamt certain of my Deja Vu moments ages before it actually happened.

As of late i have found dreams to be really annoying. Nearly every night i have been dreaming about my Ex girlfriend (Who im clearly not over...). I haven't been dreaming anything dodgy, but nearly every night i just dream about her. In my dream last night it was weird. I dreamt that we were driving (me, her and some other faceless people). I was a passenger in front, a faceless person was driving (which i think might have been my best friend) and she was in the back seat. We were on our way to drop her off at home. Upon arrival at her house she leant forward and hugged me from behind. She whispered in my ear "I love you, I always will." before kissing me on the cheek. She then whispered something else which made me happy but i cant remember what it was exactly. She got out the car. The dream didn't end there though, but from what i could feel, it felt like she loved me, but she didn't want anybody else to know it... like it was a secret. Let me just add quick that i dreamt a hell of a lot last night. Most of it i cannot remember, but i remember nearly everything that had her in it. I won't go into details with my other dreams, The one i shared above meant the most to me.

The point im trying to make, is that are these just my thoughts? Do i keep wishing for her to get back together with me and tell me she loves me? Even if it is secretive and she doesn't want anybody else to know? Or are these things that WILL actually take place, or happen similarly. I don't know... i just find it so weird (and depressing, maybe annoying) that i dreamt of her every  night. Im trying to get over her and my dreams are clearly not helping. Its the worse feeling ever to wake up and realise it was all a dream. 

Monday, March 9, 2009

We all make mistakes

We all do stupid things throughout our lives, but then again, we also do some REALLY stupid things throughout our lives. Its a funny thing how you can spend so much time at work doing everything to the best of your ability, trying your best to excel so you can move up. All only to accidentally sms your boss telling her she is crazy.

Yes you read correctly. I accidentally sent my boss a message saying that she is crazy (it obviously wasn't meant for her - but then again, i was not implying it in that way). 

She was on her way out to a meeting, quite frantically i might add. However i NEEDED to ask her something urgently. So i asked her and she seemed agitated (understandably). She answered me - and i realised that i needed to know another detail so i quickly asked her a second question. That was it, she got very agitated and walked to her desk to check for me on her laptop. The question i asked might i add didnt require her to go check it up, and even if it did she could have merely stated that it would have to wait and i would have understood. She checked for me - Still constantly throwing it my face that she had a meeting to be at. I was quite taken aback, because i really did not mean to inconvenience her in anyway, but she really took it upon herself to make it a huge inconvenience. Upon showing me what i needed to know she asked me "Can i go now?" which made me just a little annoyed because i didn't ask her to stay to do me that small favour. She is my boss, if she wanted to leave she could have just left.

Anyways moving along from that she left, and i proceeded to type an Sms "_Boss' name_ is a bit crazy atm. Geez... lol". Being caught up in the moment as i was, i accidentally sent it to *drum roll* my boss. I got a phone call from her a few minutes later asking why do i think she is crazy? Who was the message for? Disrespectful, etc etc etc.... Oh and then she hung up on me :) *sigh* now if we could pause for a second and analyze what i meant that maybe we could all calm down a little. I did NOT mean crazy as in mental, psycho, etc. Everybody has their off day, or off moment and i understand that. I was merely saying "crazy" as in frantic, rushed, etc. Like you might say to somebody "Oh ya things at the office are a bit crazy at the moment" Or "My boss is a bit crazy at the moment". 

So yeah... Im in the dog box. I really am not that kind of person, im not one to get into trouble (not much anyways :P) but now my boss thinks that i think she is crazy. She thinks that im disrespectful. There goes my "just over 1 year" clean slate. I hope she understands that it was a big misunderstanding, because it really was not meant like that. Goodbye raise i was hoping for sometime this year :P lol

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