Thursday, August 11, 2011

The Latest Dream

Aha! You thought I would not be back! I am :) just to use you as my diary. If you don't care for my personal feelings, proceed to

I had an interesting dream a night or two ago. Amber had a bit of an issue with me a week or so ago, and since then we haven't really spoken much. I haven't had a dream focused on her in AGES. In fact, I was starting to think that perhaps I am finally walking the road to getting over her completely. ALAS! You were fooled along with me.

The dream I had isn't relevant up to the one point. Amber and I were speaking, when she hugged me out of nowhere. "Do you think that some point in our lives, or somewhere along the line we were be with each other? Do you think we are meant for each other?" I can't remember my exact words, but I know I agreed... she said, "me too."

It was a nice dream, made the following day seem that little bit brighter. The only reason I decided to blog about this now is because two days after my dream, Amber started talking to me on gtalk after nearly a week of nothing. She misses me :) I just thought it was interesting because she always seems to be playing hard to get, yet I know if I had to drop off the face of the planet, she would miss me.

That is all blog diary thing :) thank you! Kthxbye!

Monday, July 25, 2011


Alas my old blog, I have converted!

This shall always be my little black book, the place where I moan and whine a lot. I shall keep it alive for such occassions :) for my latest blogs though, be sure to follow me on Tumblr at:

This is my public blog, and shall be updated far more than this one. If you have followed this one, I really appreciate it and hope you continue to do so! Just be sure to follow my new one too ;)

You can also follow me on Twitter: @Matthewfig

That is all :) have a great week everybody!

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Geepers Creepers! *snap*

Yes I am alive!

I haven't touched this blog in MONTHS! Honestly I have missed it, but when I thought about sitting down and sharing something I was just like "meh" so I never got around to it. I am back for now though :)

I finally caved in and got me a twitter account! I know, how shameful *receives dirty looks all around*. If you do wish to follow me though, I am @MatthewFig. I decided to get it so that I could follow people who will hopefully have some inspiring, or even humorous things to enjoy. That and I wouldn't mind being followed by people :) I do plan on being a writer some day!

I was chatting to Gruff the other day, and he made me realise that maybe I should get a DSLR camera. He has one and he has been using it to make some awesome films! Check him out at Anyhoo, I am going into Journalism one day, and it will be a super valuable skill to have (photography knowledge that is). I have always wanted a DSLR, but I could never really justify running out and getting one (especially seeing as a decent one costs around 10k O_O). After chatting to Gruff, I realised how much I actually want one, and how I could use it going forward with my, as of yet, unrealised career. I know I am not the arty type, I know maybe I am not one to be fully capable of good art, but that does not mean that I do not appreciate a good photo, and I would love to be the kind of guy who can produce those.

I know Amber would love to get a camera, so I didn't tell her I was getting one (I was going to eventually) but I just knew she would be super judgmental about it, and jealous. I just wasn't looking forward to the interrogation of why I need one. Gruff mentioned it to her, and we spoke about it today. How right I was -_-


Matthew: Getting my camera on Saturday :)

Ambie: why are you getting a camera?

Matthew: So I can learn with Gruff :) I am going into journalism potentially one day

Ambie: not photo journalism

Matthew: and I have always wanted a dslr :x for many many years, just never had a reason to get one
who knows?
I could end up there one day
I think its a good skill to have

Ambie: sigh i suppose... i'm probably just jealous

Matthew: -_-
You just dont want me to get a camera

Ambie: because I want a camera
well it's like me buying a playstation when you really wanted one.. you know what i mean?

Matthew: O_o


Then out of nowhere


Ambie: what camera are you getting?

Matthew: Canon D600

Ambie: how much is that?

Matthew: paying R10.5k

Ambie: omfg...

Ambie: excited?

Matthew: yup

Ambie: cool :)


Right... very sincere out of nowhere.

I was quite annoyed. I didn't realise that if somebody else wants something more than you do, you shouldn't get that something. She just made it seem like I am getting a camera to rub in her face, or at least thats how she made me feel. Then the Playstation example. The difference is, if she wanted a Playstation, and I didn't have one (and I really really wanted it). I wouldn't be such a douche about it. Anyways.

I'm deciding whether I should get a Wordpress or Tumblr blog up. Gruff and Amber have a Tumblr blog up already. I suppose I should have interrogated Amber too, and been like "wtf I have been wanting a public blog for years (which coincidentally I have). How dare you get one? Why do you want one? You don't plan on being a writer one day."

Ok ramble over :) sorry I know that sounds immature, and super ventful of me, but I have been finding loads to moan about lately, especially with regards to a certain somebody.

The only way I am affording this camera is by digging deep into my savings. I have them for a reason, and I still will have some after this purchase. At the end of the day though, a camera is an investment... they age very well.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Who Is Opening For Coldplay in South Africa?

That is the question of the day at the moment, or at least it is in my little head.

There are loads of great bands here in our very own South Africa. So much so that it seems impossible to choose a favourite (ok I know who mine is :P). Seeing as Coldplay are a band of enormous magnitude, surely they should have the right local band open for them?

A rumour just hit my ears that Parlotones are going to be opening for them. Now don't get me wrong, I have nothing against them, I just don't see why people hype them up to be as great as they are made out to be (seriously unsure if any of that made sense.) I personally think their music has the same sort of sound across all of their songs, and I honestly feel that they shouldn't be the band to open for Coldplay. I put them in the same group of bands as Prime Circle, who I wouldn't really want to open either.

So who should open? These bands aren't as "great" (according to the general public I guess), but they are frikking awesome! (in my opinion as well as many others):

- The Arrows
- Desmond and the Tutu's
- Dear Reader
- etc

These are just some of my personal favourites, I'm sure I am missing many. I just can't think of many off the top of my head at this second. If Parlotones (or Prime circle for that matter) end up opening, then good for them... but I really hope it isn't them :x this is obviously just my own opinion, use it don't use it thats your choice.

As for the election results, ANC won the majority which was to be expected, but I must report that they lost support in LOTS of areas by a few percentage, whereas the DA improved significantly compared to the 2006 elections. Only time will tell what is to happen to this country, I just hope that it is great :)

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Coldplay Golden Circle Tickets For the FNB Stadium Show!


Coldplay are coming to South Africa! During the last Cokefest in 2009, we speculated that Coldplay would come one day, but we really hoped that it would be a show that they perform alone and not at a festival.

It's insanely awesome that all these bands are coming out to South Africa now. Not that they did not before, but it really seems we are having this random surge of lots of artists flying here to do their thing. Although I am a student, I dipped into my savings to go the golden circle route. If you remember, I saw U2 at the FNB stadium earlier this year, and even though U2 are not my favourite band, I was totally blown away by that performance! It only made sense to go Golden Circle for Coldplay because I like them a heck of a lot more. Now if only bands such as Muse would come back and do an epic performance, that would be sweet :D

In other news, the Local government elections took place yesterday. I am proud to be a South African citizen, and really hope the relevant changes will be made. I know its not going to happen overnight, but the sooner the better. I will probably blog with the final results when I know them. The DA are dominating the entire Western Cape at the moment which was to be expected. I was hugely surprised this afternoon though when I saw that they were leading in the city of JHB O_O thats where I am! It got me super excited right up until this evening when I saw that the ANC had pulled the vote back and were slightly in the lead. Dang :P Ah well guess I will only know tomorrow sometime.

Next week = exam time. I've got to knuckle down and study!

Sunday, May 15, 2011

The Best Alley Cat in the World


We found my little cat dead on the side of the road early on Saturday morning. She had been ridden over and probably died on impact. It doesn't even make sense, she never goes out to the road, so I have no idea what she was doing down there. I tell you, when I was little and animals died I got sad, but my parents dealt with the remainders. Its the second time this year now.

Earlier in the year I had to take one of my dogs to be put down because he was old, sick, and suffering. I tell you, watching those sad puppy dog eyes watch you, the dogs master, abandoning him on that vets table... I don't ever want to do that again. Closing that door behind me and knowing what was going to happen, and nothing I could do to help him, broke my heart immensely.

That doesn't compare to this though. I am a huge animal lover, anybody who knows me knows this. When it comes to pets though, I love cats... really really do. Furthermore, anybody who has seen me with my cat knows that I loved the crap out of her. We had her for about 7 years, and she was truly the best cat we have ever had. The best thing was being at home alone, yet having her with me. Whichever room I was in, she would be in too because she would get up and follow me. In winter, she would whine and whine until I lifted up the covers for her so she could climb under and sleep against my legs to keep warm.

Picking up my little kitten off the sidewalk, digging the hole for her and burying her in my garden... my word I have never cried so hard over an animal in my life. She wasn't even human, but I swear, communication barrier aside, she was one of the best friends I ever had at home. Nothing will replace her, but she will never be forgotten!

Farewell little José... you were by far the most amazing and awesome cat we have ever had the privilege of looking after <3 br="">

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Late Night Studying 101

A quick guide on how to study for a test the night before:

- Study before the night before

- If you have studied your material before, summarizing the night before is simple

- Have good music on. Preferably music that makes you smile and tap your foot. This music will ensure a good mood, and a good state of mind

- Don't not have distractions, but keep distractions to a minimum

- Draw stick figures on your study notes illustrating what you are learning

This is how I have been studying for communications :) Its a tricky subject, but I have been doing decently at it.

I must say, I love good music. It can take me from 0 to good mood with some good beats! I'm feeling intensely happy for reasons beyond me at the moment... it feels nice :) anyhow, back to studying!

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

From the Pen to the Keyboard!

WEEEEEEE!!!! (no not the urine kind, sis!)

Wow. Thats all I can say. I have been a lazy hard working guy over the last few weeks (or at least that is what I keep telling myself). I am so used to being home so early from work in the past, and just killing time for the rest of the day. Not so anymore! I now have college, work, and I play soccer at college. This translates into a pretty full day, nearly every day of the week, so weekend are actually much yearned for!

It's not a bad thing though. I can honestly say that I am loving college. The two subjects I am majoring in are my favourites by far, although english essay writing may be the death of me. I wrote my first big english test yesterday, and although I think I did alright, it's the first time in my life I have really sat and wished I could have added more or removed some stuff I wrote. Ah well, considering the test was one hour and it was expected to write a 2+ page essay on poem, I think I did alright. I am just curious to see my mark.I am super hoping for a B, but I know I will probably only get a C (UPDATE! It was 74% :) yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!).

I know this is disgusting, seeing as I have never finished a book in my life, but I had an idea for another one over this past weekend, and I have been thinking about it hard ever since. I am scrapping my third book (the diary one) because I don't see me ever finishing that no matter how hard I try. So I have three potential books I would love to finish before the day I die:

Book 1: The one with the teenage kid, who embarks on a wacky (beyond wacky) space quest with a bunch of random aliens. This book is intended to be downright funny and off the wall!

Book 2: The one with a young man and his best friend, working for an agency and getting caught up in circumstances beyond their control. This is intended to be more serious, but I can honestly see me mixing up an intense love story into this one.

Book 3: This is my latest idea. I don't quite know how to describe it yet, but it will be a serious sci-fi book based on earth. WAH! I'm super excited for this one. Busy formulating my main character in my head and how I will go about laying out the story.

On top of all of this, I really think I should start my first book from scratch, or heavily edit it. I started writing it like 4-5 years ago, and I'd like to think my english talent has grown lots since then, so I want to begin it afresh, while keeping my main ideas.

Off the topic here, but I just want to document a dream I had last night. I dreamt that I met this girl, this amazingly beautiful girl. The weird thing was that, even though it was a dream, she seemed so clear, so real. The most annoying thing though, is that when I woke up, I could not even remember what she looked like -_- it was weird I guess. I am not over Amber, not in the slightest, but it was just weird to have my brain imagine this perfect girl that I have never met in my life, and present her as so real :O Ah well...

That is all from me for now ^_^ Cheerio!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011


Hello :)

So I am into my second week of varsity, and all seems to be going well thus far. I have four subjects this semester: Public Relations, Business Communication, Communication and English.

Public Relations seems to have the most allocated time which means I will spent the most time doing that this semester. It isn't the most appealing subject, but it does have some interesting factors to it. A lot of it to me seems to be general knowledge, but its all about knowing the finer details that may be the difficult part of the subject, not to mention that I am obviously only on the intro part of it. It may get to be more difficult with the further into the textbook we get.

Business Communication and Communication are fairly similar. I just realized today that I wouldn't like to confuse one subjects bulk with the other. There are a fair amount of similar definitions as an example, but I'm hoping that over time I will see that I can apply both subjects knowledge, well, to each other.

English is obviously, English. This semester we will be covering 2 books and 25 poems. Poetry is not my strong point, or not my favourite, but I am very much looking forward to it. This is what I am hoping to be doing for the rest of my life, so lets hope I can get this subject right. We were asked to do a quick half page summary of a poem, and I must say it felt awesome to actually write properly again. By writing I mean, actually writing :P the only form of writing I have done over the last few years has been that of filling out forms. So to actually write with a pen, felt oddly quite nice :)

I have made a few friends, which is awesome :) I am still getting used to them, getting to know them on a more personal level, but from what I can tell, they all seem pretty awesome. I hope the future with them goes well too!

I went for soccer trials yesterday and today at my college. MY LEGS ARE KILLING ME! I haven't played outdoor soccer for years, and indoor for months, so as you can imagine I was very unfit. I think I performed alright nonetheless. the final day before they make their decisions is on Thursday, I am hoping I get a spot on the team, as I really really enjoyed being out on the field again :)

My days have been hectically busy this week with college, work, and soccer O_O I am so exhausted... so I am off to bed :D goodnight!

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

A Work In(g Student In) Progress

ELO my precious sneaky little rapscallion of a blog!

I'm quite ashamed of myseld :x I only did a total of 2 blogs in February! I don't know where my lazy spell came from. It's not like I didn't have the time, I just didn't really feel like writing at all, or maybe I just did not have anything special or specific to write about.

Now forgive me if I repeat myself, I have a headache from hell but I really feel I need to update this blog just a bit seeing as its collecting various forms of cobwebs all over it. VARSITY!!! I don't know if I got to writing about my orientation week, but I'll give a quick summary. Day one was pretty cool, although I spent the whole week being sick I insisted on being there because I know how sucky it is to start somewhere and not know ANYBODY! My group consisted of a very mixed bunch (as in all doing very different courses and such) but two of those people I met in that group are doing the same subjects as me and we actually have the exact same timetables. The day consisted of many team building activities, and surprisingly even though we didn't know each other from a bar of soap, our team was awesome and everybody got involved in the activities.

The next day was just a day of getting to know the campus a bit better. It was the first time I had to be there early. I ended up being late because the traffic was horrible enough to make anybody want to turn around and just go home. I learnt from that and I am happy to report that I left early enough to be there on time today ^_^

The following week I had OFF! Which was nice in its own way but equally annoying because I was dying to get started on my course. I finally started yesterday and all seems to be going well so far. I <3 my college. The people I have met so far are awesome, the lecturers are interactive and seem to be pretty cool, and on top of that I really just feel like I will fit in a lot better then I ever did at UJ, due to Varsity College being a whole lot smaller in size as opposed to a university.

I seem to have developed or joined a group of friends already, which is super rad! After out lecture today we all went together to the nearby mall to grab lunch before heading to our next class later in the afternoon. I will obviously introduce them in the blogs to come as I get to know them better, but for the moment I shall not :P

Facebook is definitely an awesome tool to have now. Back when I was in Varsity I don't think I had it yet, or it was still relatively new and not many South Africans used it. Now though, I had one friend of mine insist that I add him on Facebook, which I did. Going through his profile now I was able to add people who's names I may have forgotten, and also now it made the whole making friends thing a whole lot easier. I chatted to a girl today on Facebook who is doing a similar degree to me. Seeing as we didn't really have much time to talk at Varsity, I at least feel like I know her better then I did before. This in turn makes her much more approachable at varsity, and a lot easier to talk to seeing as we know a bit about each other now.

So far, Day 1 and 2: SUCCESS! Lets hope the rest of the year carries on like that.

I hope I haven't lost any kind of touch or stlye in writing, especially as I am forcing this, but at least it feels good to be writing again. Speaking of which, today I realized just how long it has been since I have written anything out by hand. Being in the work environment, everything is pretty much done electronically, so writing feels like a whole new thing all over again. I must admit, it felt nice to write out stuff today, even though my hand writing is still disgustingly disgusting!

Tomorrow I have to work and attend lectures. It is definitely going to take some getting used to, but at least I have a job which is awesome. My company let me stay on part time, so being in that line of work means I am able to be incredibly flexible with my hours, which should be super useful when it comes to test and exam time!

I think that is all for now ^_^ Cheerio!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Awww I Love You Too ^_^


Yes yes I know it has been ages since I have updated. Strap up though, I do believe I have lots to say tonight seeing as I haven't said anything for AGES! Where to begin where to begin? Well lets start at the beginning. Not all the way BC, but you know what I mean ^_^

Lets start with something I completely forgot to mention before (I think) I got U2 tickets last year as soon as they announced that they would be performing in SA. I am not their biggest fan, I mean they really are before my time and all, but this was to be the first big concert at the FNB stadium (previously known as soccer city, the huge ass stadium built for the world cup). It was to be the experience of a lifetime, and it really truly was!

I am not one for taking photo's and all, but considering that we got normal field standing tickets, managed to stand pretty damn close to the front, and experienced one hell of a concert, I could not resist going all Asian in that crowd and snapping 9000000000 pictures of the performance and stage :)

This is the stadium around 3 hours before the opening act started, still fairly empty, but it got insanely full! There were over 100 000 people apparently, give or take of course.

This was the opening scene, the lighting and sound were AMAZING!!! I had goosebumps for most of the show, as tired as my legs and all were, it was worth every second!

Guitar solo time :P

Bono on the outer stage, we really were so close, best value for money ticket EVER! Was only R400!

This was amazing... they killed all the lights around the stadium and asked everybody to put their cellphone or cellphone light on. I wish I could put a video up here, but it would not do it any form of justice AT ALL!

*Sigh* I had a whole thing on Valentines day -_- and my browser just auto closed O_o ALL OF IT IS GONE!!!! Sigh... I am not in the mood to write it all again :'( I will do it soon though, promise!

Ok I changed my mind, I am so irritated -_- I really need to write out my blogs in word or something and just copy and paste. Here is more or less what I had to say:

I was saying how I know Amber and I hate Valentines day, but regardless of the fact that its a cheap marketing stunt to get people to spend money on gifts and all, not being Ambers boyfriend, it gave me a great excuse to just spoil her and give her presents. I wasn't sure if she would be keen or not, so I just was teasing her the night before, saying "So I heard you are going to let me take you to dinner tomorrow evening?" She didn't hate the idea, but she didn't like the thought that maybe the places will be full and all, so she suggested takeaways.

She got home late from college and confirmed that she takeaways would be cool. I was happy to be seeing her at least, because I really was half expeccting her to be like naaaaaaaaaaa..... I think that although she hates the day as much
as I do, a little part of her did want to be spoiled and treated. I was happy to oblige :) I asked my mom to do a bouquet of red and yellow roses for her, I bought her a gift voucher and body scrub. When I arrived, she seemed happy to receive them all. Her dad even commented saying I'm spoiling his daughter too much, which in all honesty, I really love doing!!

We ate in her room on the floor, leaning on her bed, watching a movie on her pc. Her table, bed, and chair were full of stuff, hence the floor. After we were done eating she did her work next to me on her Mac. When she was done though I was surprised to see her lean on me. Now the thing with Amber, even though I'm a guy, I am often shy to pull the first moves on her, due to fear of rejection. I generally let her hint, or pull the first move because then I know she is ok with it. I really expected her to shrug away casually, but she didn't when I put my arm around her. The even more awesome thing was that she got more comfortable, and even held my hand later on. After the movie we remained on the floor and spoke crap. Eventually I stretched and closed my eyes, I was surprised to have her attack hug me. You seen Scott Pilgrim vs The World? No? Go see it, that will explain what an attack hug is :P although it speaks for itself really. She gave me a tight hug and I hugged her back. I decided to kiss her, rejection or not, well it Was ValenLol day, and I'd risk the rejection just to feel her kiss once more. She accepted it :) and we kissed... the nice thing though is that she wasn't like all weird about it... she kissed me back and I know she enjoyed it as much as I did (or at least I hope :P)

On the way out she stood on the little step I love so much, and we hugged each other properly. I snuck in another kiss or three, and it was awesome because she really was kissing me back, not just responding to me, if that makes sense? Bah phooey it doesn't matter :P it was my moment not yours. She sms'd me later saying thanks for everything :) not all bad for a random Vday gathering... I realyl enjoyed it even though we didn't spend much time together, it was fun.

DAMN there I am done, my first draft was way longer and better written in my opinion. Oh well at least you have an update to chew on for a bit :) tomorrow is day one of orientation for college, so I am out. Night night blogging world!

Monday, February 7, 2011


YES!!! I am a student :D

Sorry I have been so scarce lately, I have just been too busy procrastinating to bother writing anything. I have been meaning to though, and here it is. I am officially a STUDENT!!!! I wanted to blog on the day I got my student card but I was super busy and didn't get the chance.

I got my student card already too, which is pretty awesome. The blog title is of course, my student number. Orientation week starts next week Monday and I must say I am feeling extremely giddy and nervous about it. I am going to be an old man among little kids fresh out of highschool. Its going to be extremely funny and annoying at the same time. Funny because most 18 year olds have bigger issues than I do, and annoying because most 18 year olds have bigger issues than I do. I totally cannot wait to get started though, the Orientation week should be rad!

In the work ennvironment it seems I may be getting my way which is also super awesome. If all goes well, I will have a bit of work to do for my company part time which should ensure that I can continue paying my car off and whatnot. All is looking good, just waiting for confirmation from my boss on that one.

My year is only just getting started... but it's going to be a good year! (lets hope)

I was going to put a picture up of my student card, because the wind totally was kicking my hairs ass that day and I thought it was funny, but I'm afraid I'm far too lazy.

My friend Chello finally got a job, and on top of that it is like a dream job for him. Hopefully he will make enough money, see the light, and come study in JHB next year or something :P


Sunday, January 30, 2011

Student/Employee Who Can Ramble LOTS!

Screw UJ

I have spent many an hour on the phone calling to find out when in heck I will know if I got accepted or not. They told me December, then January, then the end of January. Come Friday, they tell me to call on Saturday. Come Saturday, the phone is ENGAGED every single time I phone. IF I was accepted, then I would have to start tomorrow. Well screw them and their lameness.

So I spoke to my parents today, and awesome news? I'm going to Varsity College :) that is set 99% in stone! I just need to go register properly tomorrow and I should have a spot. The degree I will be taking is a BA Communication and English, which is perfect for me in my opinion. It covers a broader spectrum of professions, ranging from things such as Journalism, Editing, and Copy writing, all the way to Public Relations, Media, etc. The course is 3.5 years, and its gonna kick my ass. Hopefully though I can endure it, and come out on the other side holding my degree.

On the flipside, my parents told me I need to have a job. Studying full time and having another job somewhere is going to be super hard, but I think I can manage it. I am going to try my best to stay on at my company with some kind of part time work. As much as I hate it, the work hours vs salary is really great, so I can easily keep studying and working on the side. I just need to take care of my car, insurance, gym, and phone. My parents shall handle the rest :)

I spent pretty much my entire weekend with Amber. Haven't really spent time with her so much for ages. Was an interesting and confusing weekend nonetheless.

On Thursday evening we had a bit of an argument over gtalk. I don't know over what really, but for your knowledge I'll copy and paste it here:

10:58 PM
Ambie: hey
10:59 PM
me: Hey
Ambie: are you tired?
11:00 PM
me: No? Why?
Just got home
Had to go fetch stuff from family
Ambie: are you in a bad mood then?
11:01 PM
you seemed tobe either tired or in a less than good mood tonight
11:02 PM
me: :? No?
11:03 PM
Ambie: oh ok
11:05 PM
are you happy?
me: With what? :-P
11:06 PM
Ambie: in genral
11:07 PM
me: I don't know
Ambie: it's something gruff asks me regularly
11:08 PM
so are you ?
me: I dont know
11:09 PM
Ambie: think about it?
me: why?
11:10 PM
Ambie: cause I wanna know
but don't worry
me: I dont have an answer
im kind of inbetween atm
11:13 PM
Ambie: ok, good to know. playing sc?
me: why is that good to know :-?
Ambie: what you doing?
me: nothing
11:14 PM
just facebooking and chatting
I dont only play games when Im on my pc
Ambie: I was just asking :S
me: sorry
11:15 PM
but it really does seem that everybody thinks that is all I do
when I am at the pc
11:16 PM
Ambie: sucks
me: yup
11:17 PM
Ambie: i don't wanna play putt-putt :S
me: so dont?
Ambie: enjoy your night
11:18 PM
me: :-?
11:19 PM
er... ok
you too

She was referring to play Putt-Putt the following day with some friends. It may not seem like it, but I know Ambie well enough to know that she was being a bit sour when she just abruptly said night. I was in a bit of a mood that evening, but I really don't think I was that bad, or bad enough for anybody to really notice. It just annoys me how she fires off lots of questions, and ignores any I may ask.

So I was a bit ticked at her, and I knew I was going to see her the next day because her mom asked me to sort out her pc. So I arrived at her house (at the same time as Amber mind you, she was out) and she acted like everything was ok. I sat in the study next to her room, sorting out her moms pc. She would randomly come in to spend time with me, but she would hug me from behind and we would just talk. As the afternoon proceeded I was facing her and we were talking. She was standing and I was sitting down. Being a guy I can't help but fantasize about kissing the girl I really love, and so the afternoon had provided many opportunities to play out "what if" scenario's in my head. Like if I just sprung one on her would she reject me or concede? I didn't need to.

We were chatting and I just knew it was coming, a moment I had missed for so many months. The last time we kissed I think was in like July last year. She leant down a bit hesitantly, then kissed me gently :S My head exploded with the moment, thinking stuff like "OMG SAVOUR IT YOU HAVEN'T FELT THIS FOR SO LONG IT COULD BE THE LAST FOR THE NEXT SIX MONTHS OR FOREVER JUST SLOW DOWN TIME". Something like that :P it lasted a few seconds... not too long, not too short. She smiled at me, and abruptly turned and left the room. I was like :-? I guess she totally was annoyed at herself for caving in, or something like that. I had to meet Gruff for an event in the evening so I left a little while later, nothing being said between us, like nothing had happened :S I came back though a bit later to finish her moms pc. We hung out like normal. I had my PSP so we were playing Littlebigplanet while we waited for the pc to finish formatting. I was teasing her about her getting her wisdoms out, which was happening the next day. She was telling me to stop, I was pushing her buttons, but we were both laughing. Eventually she kissed me just to stop talking :) I wasn't exactly complaining. When I said goodbye, I made sure I kissed her goodnight.

I climbed into my car, knowing nothing between us had changed, or so I think I was protecting myself. Not getting my hopes up just to be crushed again, So I went home, happy, but a little confused and none expectant nonetheless.

The following day she got her wisdoms out so I never saw her, but the FOLLOWING day I spent all day with her. I took her shopping at around 10, we were out till like 12:00 or so. Then Matt and Kristen (friends of ours) were visiting her a little later in the day. She asked me to stay with her if I didn't mind because she didn't want it to be awkward or anything for her (Matt and Kristen are dating so Amber would be like a spare wheel or something :P). After their visit we went back to my house to play Littlebigplanet 2 on my PS3 with Gruff (yes I know, we are overdosing on LBP everywhere but its so damn fun :P). When I took her home she thanked me and all and was about to get out the car. I realised that I had left my bag inside from earlier (laptop bag not handbag!) so I asked if I could get it quickly.

Just outside Ambers front door, there is like a little ledge. Amber has developed a habit I love. Because I am so tall, hugs are normally awkward around other people for me because I am so tall, and its kind of weird having to stoop down so low for a proper hug. Amber often hugs my sideways in front of other people (which I totally hate, but just let it go because we have had that argument before.) Whenever I leave Ambers house now though, she steps up onto the ledge before she gives me a hug goodbye. This brings her face height to more or less the same as mine, me still being taller. So she always gives me a proper hug goodbye which I really love. That night though she surprised me because I wasn't even going to go in for the kiss, and before I knew it, she snuck in a goodbye kiss! Feels nice to know I am not the only one who missed that :)

That all being said though, I know we are not going to step up into dating mode or anything again. She starts college again on Tuesday, along with Gruff, so they are going to politely drop off of Earth again. Man I'm going to hate it :S hopefully though I will have my own studies to keep my busy :)

That is all for tonight! Chello probably hates me because he wanted to play some HoN and I was like NO I have things to do. All I wanted to do was write :) I hope he understands!

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Varsity College

Ahoy me matey's! AAAAARGH!!!! *waves wooden leg in hand* :O!

So the end of January is bearing down faster on the world than a bear, well simply because a bear existing must mean it is bearing around doing its own thing. Yes I completely agree with you, that didn't make any sense whatsoever.

Back to the topic as for mentioned above, VARSITY COLLEGE! Seeing as UJ have left me hanging until this Friday (a bit late I know O_o) in my desperation to ensure I study this year, I starter looking around and listening to all the current radio adverts in detail. I heard about a place called Varsity College, found the nearest campus, and went to check it out.

Let me be clear here. When I decided to study again, I already knew I wanted to do it at a college. Something more private, allowing me to focus more and make more friends. University is just too big. It's like throwing a worm into a pond filled with piranhas and telling the poor thing to make a living, work hard, and make friends. Ok it's not that dramatic, but when I think about, it really is like being thrown into a sea and being asked to just fit in. Although I suppose you really could because there are tons of people and they won't really notice you. Anyways ramble aside, I really wanted to be at a college.

Believe you me, I searched many a website last year, searching for the right place. I was silly though, I was searching for a college dedicated to writing courses. They exist, but the good ones are only in Cape Town! I should have been looking for a college that offers many degrees, but does not scale to the size of a University. if anything Varsity College is really what it is called, its like a University, but really the size of any normal college. I went to chat to a councilor there and check the place out. I really liked it!

There are two drawbacks though which still has the knot in my stomach tightening around insides, giving me the feeling of falling off a cliff, not knowing what will meet me at the bottom. First off, it is quite pricey. UJ would cost around R15k a year or so. VC would total the region of around R35k, which is over double. At the end of the day it still isn't that bad though, Gruff's college is in the region of R62k! Taking on that course would put financial pressure on my folks, and obviously me. I would need to make damn sure I do well, more then just passing! On top of that I would probably have to work part time to help with the financial situation.

The second drawback is this, due to late application, I do not have a Unisa student number. Although I will be studying at a college, it is still technically a Unisa Degree and written exam at the end of the day. Due to this, this is the cycle that will happen. I will study first Semester, but only write the exams for what I studied then, in the second semester. What I study in the second semester, will only be written in the first semester of the following year. Make sense? This in turn, stretches the course to 3.5 years as opposed to the regular 3. On top of that, I will be playing catchup the whole time. It sounds insanely difficult! I reckon I could cope though, I just need to discipline myself, a lot.

I have already made up my mind, I want to go to VC! I have until the 10th of Feb to register, and classes start late Feb. I am just waiting for UJ's decision before I let my parents know. If all else fails, I will always have UJ, but here is hoping I have VC!

Monday, January 17, 2011


AAAH! My one friend Faye now has her own show on a local radio station here in South Africa, UJFM! Yes that is University of Johannesburg FM :P She is on Mondays and Wednesdays from 9-12 and Saturdays and Sundays from 10am-12pm. If you do perchance want to take a listen:

That is the live stream. I'd love to visit her in studio sometime!

Speaking of UJ, the deadline is drawing closer. I called in today and it seems I may finally have an answer on Thursday/Friday. It is here, the answer to my year! It's just a teeny bit nerve wrecking, but either way, I have to take what decision is made like a man, and get on with my life.

I don't know if anybody has been paying attention to the news, but flooding is dominating the southern hemisphere as of late, even here in South Africa! I am doing store visits in an area called Centurion tomorrow, and to my surprise I have heard that flooding there is terrible and people have even died O_o I think I'll talk to my boss about that one... It really is super sad though! I really enjoy the rain, but I guess too much is extremely harmful just like none is just as bad. Here's hoping all works out, although its forecast to rain all the way until Thursday! Even my little Windows weather widget just has clouds all over it for the duration of the week.

I have started ANOTHER blog elsewhere ;) more on that when I have some more posts though. Kthxbye!

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Sore/Saw Bums

Don't ask :) Clayton showed me what a saw bum would look like, and I just HAD to do motivationals for it!!!

We had a guys evening tonight :) was really cool!!! as the night progressed I couldn't help but laugh at the most mundane of things. I suppose tiredness can make even the unfunny situation make a guy grab his gut and blister into stitches of laughter! I really needed it and it was awesome to just have some male bonding time.

this afternoon I took Amber to lunch. These have become quite a random occuring thing, but I must say I really enjoy them. I hope we can keep it up even when she is back to college, because even though we don't draw the lunch out, its just nice to meet up with her and socialise, find out how she is, and just laugh at random crap.

I ashamedly admit that Amber has been helping me choose clothes :S I hate clothe shopping, but I try make sure when she is with me that I can get her input on certain clothing items. She doesn't force me, but she insists I try on clothes I normally wouldn't bother to glance over. To my surprise I quite like a lot of the items she has picked out for me, and my wardrobe has filled up quite a bit. I guess I take comfort in her opinion, because not only does she have awesome taste in clothes, but her opinion is the only opinion that really matters to me :x and if she thinks I look good in something, well I feel a hell of a lot more comfortable wearing it. I hope she doesn't mind, she seems to make shopping enjoyable :)

Anyhow tomorrow is the weekend... WOOOOH! Its late here and I'm tired. ZZZZ night

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Blogger, She is Confused!


Yesterday I said it was my 101st blog, according to my actual blog main page, this will only be my 98th (or 99th) blog. I'm equally confused as you are, but I'm sure over the next few days I will definitely have surpassed the 100 blog mark.

On my phone I have a very nifty e-reader which I have been using to catch up on some old favourites of mine, and reading up on some new books. I have decided to figure out how to put my blog (2009 and 2010 posts) into a teeny book format like the other books I read, and read through my life thusfar. I know it will be a far more interesting read for me, maybe not so much for others. I know it is quite a decent length too, probably the length of a decent sized Novel. Why in 2010 I had 58500 words or so! I know 2009 didn't hold as many words, but it will definitely add to the word count as a whole.

The University Of Johannesburg, first time I have ever heard of in my life, is experiencing an influx of late registrations! It has been all over the news how mad traffic has been and how long the line of prospective students has been for late registrations. I can't help but feel my chances have grown stupendously slim now, even though technically I have been accepted already (space dependent) and all these people trying to apply now never applied last year at all. In my desperation I have searched over the interwebz, and double checked colleges I may have overlooked. To my relief it looks like Boston City Campus still have open registrations, and they offer Journalism! I will have to enquire further, but at least there is a Campus nearby, it is even closer then UJ which is quite a bonus. In fact, I think I would rather go there then to UJ. Only time shall tell of course, still got fingers crossed for being accepted into either of them, else If I work this year I may just drive myself into insanity and all that jazz.

I must say, things with Amber have really been super chilled lately. I know I was hoping for the whole "get back together thing" but it never happened. It really sucked at first, having to be around her when she didn't seem interested, and I guess it still is in a lot of ways. I have to fight with myself to just be a friend to her, not hope for anything more at this moment in time. It's INSANELY DIFFICULT to not throw out compliments to her though, I fight on my hardest. She is maturing so much more these days, more then I thought she ever would, just because I thought she was quite mature already. The thing that makes me smile the most though, is that she still has that little giggling girl in her, the goofy (in a good way!) one who laughs at the big and small things.

I find that I often try find things to be upset with her about, I don't know why. Lately I can't honestly fault her though. She always chats to me over google talk, seems to want to spend some time with me too, and sms's me every now and then. Before I'd just find myself irritated that she never seemed to make the effort. I feel crap about myself now though because it doesn't seem like I am making any effort in this friendship myself. The truth is I am just scared to spend time alone with her, because whether she realizes it or not, its difficult for me. It makes me happy to be with her, but sad at the same time because I'm not really "with" her (if that makes sense)

Its still a learning curve I guess :) I just refuse to think about start of second year for her and Gruff... because man, if I thought I didn't see them much last year, this year is going to be a lot worse :S

Tuesday, January 11, 2011


Wow, only clicked now but yesterday was my 100th blog with this blog :) I didn't even stop to commemorate it or anything! So happy 100th blog dear blog, in April I'll remember to wish you a happy 2nd birthday too because that is when I started you. I cannot for the life of me believe how fast time has been travelling these past few years. I remember certain things as if they happened yesterday, then I stop and realise that it was like a year or two ago already! My cousin Gabi just celebrated her one year Anniversary with her boyfriend ths past week, man I really couldn't believe my ears. It felt like yesterday when they had just started dating!

Although was the second day of work, I didn't end up working today. Last night a terrible stomach bug took control of me and I was dying. Dying as in my stomach felt like something was trying to punch its way out of me. It was the worst feeling ever. The moment I went to the bathroom I felt better, the moment I was back in bed I felt like dying again. I slept a total of one hour and when it came to 6am I sms'd my manager telling her there is no ways I will be working today, even though its the second day back at work and I know it sounds ridiculous that I am sick. I ended up finally feeling better early this afternoon, and I slept for the better part of it, waking up at like 7 or so.

I hope I can get some sleep tonight, as my sleeping pattern is probably a little bit screwed up at the moment O_O damn...

Monday, January 10, 2011

Welcome to 2011 :O!

Harro :)

Sorry for the extensive lack of posting! I was on leave afterall and I kept telling myself that I will get back to everyday life when work starts again (which was today). I'm kind of depressed about this year thus far I won't lie. I called the University first thing on the 3rd of January to find out what the hell was going on. Turns out I am accepted, but due to space limitation, I have to put my name down on a waiting list. So I went to the Varsity, only to find out that I need a copy of my ID and results once more to add along with my name to the waiting list. So it ended up being a trip back to my house to pick up the relevant documentation. Thank God I called first thing on Monday to find out, because it looks like a lot of people will be adding their names to that list O_o although I know they take your M score (score based on your results) and compare it to others, only choosing the highest scores, I'm hoping my punctuality will give me some sort of advantage.

So this year is still one giant question mark, at least until the 28th. Basically I have to wait for all other students to register so that the Varsity can see if any students who applied for said course, ended up taking something else, or going to another Varsity or college. Man... I hope, I really really REALLY hope I am in. I started work again today, and I was in such a lull of thought, just wishing my days were numbered so I could get on with studying. If studying fails to happen this year... well, I'll consider that road when I arrive there.

In case I didn't put it up (which I am sure I didn't), my official rough blog word count (this blog and book blog) for last year stands at 58 313 words. I am quite happy with that number, as it really is like a short novel. I'm hoping to beat that this year, as well as get involved in a heck of a lot more writing, most of which will be voluntary. As things happen and I know what is happening with my life, so will you :) my trusty little word documentary on my teeny life.

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BA English and Communication graduate. I like to write stuff!